It’s going well so far! I haven’t gone off the diet and I am well prepared for another 2 weeks.
I got on the scale this morning and I was down to 13 stones. That’s 182lbs! Hopefully this will keep up for the rest of the week. 6lbs in 4 days is great! I’ve got 3 days left so would like to lose another 4lbs but I’m being very hopeful! I think the most I have ever lost in one week is about 7lbs so I’m almost there. If I lose 10lbs this week, I will have 11 weeks approx to lose the remainer. I think 40lbs in total would be good. I would have to lose just under 3lbs a week to reach that goal. That would eventually take me down to 9 stone 12lbs but I’m not sure that I need to go down that low. I think it is a good idea to aim low anyway so I’m focused for longer as I find that when I get closer to my target, I start to drift out of the zone.
I am determined to lose this weight for good. I want to look at my wedding photos and be really happy with myself. I want to wear a bikini and feel that I look good. I know you may think that it’s not possible to feel absolutely happy with your body but it is and I know. That is because I did feel like that only 4 years ago.
I keep thinking about how I will feel when I have lost the weight and I cannot wait. I can hardly believe that I let myself get into this position. I got up to over 220lbs! I absolutely hated myself and seeing people who last saw me when I was thin.
In 2006 I went to Ibiza with my friend and I was really small at the time. That wasn’t even very long ago. Now I just don’t feel comfortable in a bikini. Actually, that’s a lie. I do feel comfortable while I am there but when I see the photos I hate them. I love to have photos from a holiday where I actually like looking at them.
Luckily, in Jamaica, we are staying in a suite with a semi private pool. It basically means that we are only sharing with 3 other couples. To be honest, I know that people aren’t paying me any attention anyway so I shouldn’t really be bothered but you know you are anyway!
Anyhoo, onwards and downwards!

I’ve never liked the word diet, but I dislike all the other diet euphemisms even more. Program, eating plan, lifestyle choice . . . it all means diet, so that is the word I’m going to use.
As far as diets go, this is not exactly my first rodeo, so to speak. I have probably tried every diet ever published (and some unpublished) since 1976. Strangely enough, I’ve never had massive amounts of weight to lose–just the same 15 pounds over and over. Now, I want to lose 25. I have been at about the same weight for close to 3 years, and have been on Weight Watchers 3 times. Although I lost 5 pounds on WW, it was tough and I was hungry. As you get older, WW allows fewer and fewer points. Not fair! I figured I was eating about 1200 calories per day. Technically, if all is true about calories and weight loss, I should have lost more. Interestingly, I can eat as much as I want of whatever I want and not gain any more weight, but cutting my calories really wasn’t causing me to lose weight, either.